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Changing the World never Lasted so LongTake A Bite Out of the McBradley with Cheese!!! Literally 7月22日 Hate MeDreaming in Reality
(a song by Megan and Ryan)
Like smoke stains on the water Your life stained on my heart A swirling sea of turmoil; A child destined to fall apart
.... And again he cries...
Good-bye to you One last day to live I gave you my all But you gave me the slip So long for now My eyes are what cry In the middle of it all My heart dies.
.... And again he cries....
As the years flew by He began to feel The all-consuming hate Of a teen who couldn’t deal His love he found And his love he lost Nothing in his life ever felt real
.... And again he cries...
Good-bye to you One last day to live I gave you my all But you gave me the slip So long for now My eyes are what cry In the middle of it all My heart dies.
.... And again he cries....
Every day is always the same He lost the will to live Just another boring routine His life was no longer his to give Swirling in a sea of nothingness He can’t take it anymore He’s leaving this world behind He’s closing one last door
.... And again he cries...
Good-bye to you One last day to live I gave you my all But you gave me the slip So long for now My eyes are what cry In the middle of it all My heart dies.
.... And again he cries.... …. And again he cries…. July 19, 2006
I hope you all enjoy and when the song comes out on the radio you can say you read it first! 5月18日 I'm sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of Mine herethis is a poem by me and Ryan Shadows of Yesterday If everything in the world was good not bad,how would I feel if I coudln't feel sad? Would the days be better or would they still haunt my nights? Would I except it all or would I put up a fight? All my worst dreams seem to ahve come true. The evil of this world is unleashed, what will I do? Do I stand up and shout or do I give into what they want? my enemies prowl; they tease and they taunt. It all hurts, the pain oh my god, it hurts really bad, why did I do it? now I have lost all that I had. All the smack that you talked, was a stab in the heart, our friendship was like a hammer on glass; it all fell apart. I'm lost without you, the pain is all I feel. I have to get away to a place more sureal. The memories of us force me to see, everything in life I never want to be. We all started out the best of friends and more, but one little mistake and you gave me the boot out the door. So I expanded my horizons to as far as the eye can see, and what I found was a shock; I found the real me. So I said good bye to you at last. you are part of me no more, I left you in my past. Now I'm shining like a star. I surpassed your expectations by far. I know it was a shock to you, a big slap in the face, but I will keep on running for the gold in this life long race. I will show you in the end how you hurt us more than you know. I can't believe the people we loved would sink so low. You were stuck in your own ways. you coudln't see past your own thoughts. Your self image was all you cold see in your little box. So you decided to take a trip, you took a little fall. You tried to take me down, but I was stronger than you all. But you coudln't stop, you just had to keep going on and on, you woudln't shut up from dusk til dawn. you keep fighting; punch left, punch right. If you keep fighting, I'll give you a punch with all my might. Knocking you out, I take you down for the count. For everything you said, it was you who could never amount. You never came to anything and I was the one who made it to the top, despite all the blows you gave; it was me you were unable to stop. So we will keep fighting, we will fight for whoever, whatever; anyone and everyone. We won't stop, not ever; never. No matter how hard you may try, we will try harder than you, cause it doesn't matter, we won't stop. So bring it on, what are you going to do? Sorry i didn't put it in verse, but still you get the gooness of it! that was written 5-17-06 from 10:43pm-12:28am. It was a good time!! 5月13日 Hold On To MeHello Hello! I figured I would catch everybody up on what's been going on. Well first of all my first prom pic is up under Megot and Ryno so you should all check that out and leave a comment. As soon as I find my connector i will be able to Put the rest of them up. Well, our schools graduation is coming up which means some of my good friends are leaving me behind. I will be extemely sad when they go, but happy that they are finally able to get out of this icky town. And then my friend John is graduating and he is leaving for the Army the first week in june which makes me sad becuase I will miss him alot. but all this means that I am almost a senior, which means I'm almost ou tof this place and away from these people. I have finally made a decision about where I'm going to college and it is in Colorado, i just don't know what school. I also made yearbook for next year as a writer so everyone will remember me and know my mad writing skills. I'm excited. I got a job, but I hate it and am looking for a new one, but in this town will be less likely to find a new one. Ryan is running for student body president and I have been busy helping him with it. He is running against Eddie, they don't like each other so, ya it's kind of this major thing. They give their speeches Wednesday and then we vote. Ryan's speech is really good and I can't wait until he makes President, cuase i think he will. Summer is almost here and finals are looming before me for next week. My chemistry final I have to pass with at least a C so ya it's gonna be hard. But my brain has already checked out for the summer so I'm in BLEH mode during school, and can't wait to get out. But that is all I really ahve to say. So Ya. I'm gonna go now.
LataZ,
the McBradley 5月2日 Grease LightningHello world!! I was grounded for a while for skipping class but i'm back now and I feel fine. Well right now I feel fine. I went to Ryan's Grease play practice tonight and I finally got to meet Adrian, she is so cool and we have alot in common! It was fun to watch everybody in character and dance and sing and everything it just rocked! There was guy there that I guess was totally hitting on me but I didnt even notice, but still he was hitting on me and that just makes me feel whats the word, oh right...HOTT!! Of course I'm hott, but it's nice to be reminded occasionally of it! I have tardy detention tomorrow and I'm in trouble for that cuase they sent out a thing in the mail and my mom is disappointed and is kinda angry with me right now and I hope I don't get grounded again cuase it's like solitary confinement out here in BFE! I guess I had a good day for the most part I just wish everyday would end with me feeling so great! I really can't wait to see Grease when they are all dolled up in there costumes and what not cuase that would just add to the effect, plus that 50s look is so hott, well the rebel type anyway. I swear I was born in the wrong era (thats not the laundry detergent although that would be really funny). I suppose i should tell you all that I applied for a newspaper position on our school paper and am waiting to find out if I made it or not. I really hope I did cuase i LOVE to write and most people don't know that I can actually write quite well when I want to, which isn't usually on here. This is pretty long (unlike the 7 inch shlong) (that one was for you) I'm out like fishes also known as trout.
The McBradley with Cheese
Solar Power
Margot
Meg
You know just pick a name and roll iwth it and it's mine 4月23日 I Got Chills They're Multiplyin...Last night was prom night. It was really fun! OK so the dance was just like any other dance, although I did get a dedication to me, Made by Ryan, playing our song "Don't Take the Girl" And we got pics taken which will be up when I get them and more pics will be up too. The banquet was fun too, thankfully I got put at a table with friends and a bunch of my friends were at the table right next to mine so that was fun too. After prom was pretty cool, it was a casino night and i played Hold em and I was doing really well winning lots of money and then Ryan came to my table and was all bullying me and what not so I went all in on a pair of tens and Ryan called with a Q, 2, (who calls with somethignl ike that) and a Q came on the river and i lost I was so mad. But I got some stuff at the auction, 2 things me and Ryan are sharing, but he bought me a fountain candle thingy, which is totally cool! And after after prom I went to Ryan's for breakfast and I had pancakes and coffee, and we went downstairs adn all of us were hanging out, playin pool, half asleep, just messin around. And we got into a tickeling fight (that was sooo fun) and it was just fun. Ya know, I think all this stuff you can't really explain to anybody. Becuase when you explain it it just doesn't do it any justice and they really don't understand why it was fun or how in the world that would make you laugh or wahtever. I think that all of last night/this morning is just something you would really have to experience for yourself. And I hope all of you have or will cause it's great. But i still have to figure out how I'm gonna make it through school tomally without falling asleep. Hope ya'll have a great week.
Solar Power 4月13日 If Tomorrow Never ComesOK, so today and yesterday. Ya. Lets just say one of my really good friends is really hurting right now and I wish that there was something I could do for her to help, but I know I can't. I've never been through that and i don't know what she is feeling. All I can do is just be there for her. And hope it will all be ok. Well this happening made me thik about death alot. I'm not afraid to die. It doesn't scare, but I am afraid of never finding my true love. I'm afraid that I won't be able to do all those things I have planned for my life. I would like to tell all of you that read my blog, not that I know all of you, but I love you all. You all have effected my life in some way and I thank you very much. You are all great people and you deserve the best you could ever get in life.
I want to say how much I wish I understood everything that has happened, especially in the past month. I don't understand and I probably never will. But I know that some things in life are just meant to be. Something things in life just aren't. Sometimes you aren't suppose to know why or how or where or when you are just suppose to be. I do wish that I could be much more for people, I wish that some people would understand why I can't. I'm the type of person that will never open up to anybody, becuase that way I'm never vulnerable, and I can't get hurt. I made that mistake twice. With the same person. And it won't happen again. I can promise you that. With all the things you said and all the things you promised or said we'd do together, I guess I just got too involved. Now you are single and looking which is funny because you told me that there is really no point in a relationship when you are leaving in a year anyway. This blog is not meant to bash anybody so I will continue on with my point.
I would like to think that I have alot of friends, but i don't. I don't let enough people in to ever get close enough to be my friend. But in my head I don't need them. I don't need anybody. In my mind I would rather be by myself. But the truth is I know I do, it's just a little harder for me to admit that I would need somebody else. I don't want to have to need somebody else, becuase i don't want to have to think I depend on somebody to be there for me, and I don't want them to ever feel like they have to be. There are only a very select few people that I know I can't live without, but I never do tell them who they are. Some people You just can't help to love no matter how hard you try not to.
So I guess the point of this blog is to do something I wouldn't ever do, and that is to tell you all how I feel about you and about them. I love You. Thank you for all you do. And I'm sorry that I don't tell you more often.
Love
Megan 4月5日 Our Lives Just Won't Stop Slipping..Shakin Not Stirred But Completely coated with
"The Good Stuff"
(3-28-06)
NOt sure of the day we met, not quite sure that I won't forget.
But I know all the times with you I could never regret.
Friends fromt he beginning and friends to the end.
The good times are near, just around the bend.
When troubled times are the only thing near.
WHen all our words seem so unclear.
We lean on each other, we make it through.
After all thats what best friends do.
MOre bumps and bruises with you I've endured.
Many more laughs and inside jokes have been the cure.
Some things just take more time,
but me and you we'll be just fine.
We're the kind of people that just seem to click.
Our friendship is the kind that just seems to last,
the kind that just sticks.
So when you've hit the edge and you begin to fall
remember I'll always be here;
pick up the phone and call.
Oh my gosh!! It is so great to be back on the computer becuase it has been gone and the phone has been gone and I thought I was gonna die!! SO WOOT! WEll, I guess things are going great, well not great but much better I guess. Things are still a little weird, but it will be that way for a while. I think I'm gonna go. LataZ.
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